Revisiting The Soundtrack Of Your Life

“After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music.” —Aldous Huxley

From the moment you were born, your subconscious mind went to work and began its job as your personal scribe — the recorder of every event you ever experienced in your life — past present or future. As your dutiful recorder your subconscious mind relies upon your senses (sight, sound, touch, smell and taste) to obtain the information it needs to create memory.

All of the experiences of your life are not only recorded, but organized into files that have distinct labels. For instance there is a file, or storage box, labeled “embarrassments,” one labeled “hurts,” one labeled “resentments,” and so on. Your scribe does this for a very good reason. Your subconscious is one hundred percent responsible for your safety and security. Those recorded events serve a purpose. If the present situation triggers a past event where you were hurt or embarrassed, your dutiful scribe will bring up the “picture” that was recorded in order to warn you not to go there again. It’s all about protection.

Reacting to something strongly in the moment is not about what is going on in the moment; it’s a button that was pushed based upon your recorded events. When you are in reactive mode, it’s your faithful servant ringing an alarm, and if studied on a deeper level, it’s a way to get to know your inner self better.

Most people want to feel better and that drives them in many cases to attempt to change their outer world. What if the key to feeling better and more at peace is to go inward, understanding that your entire history is in those old storage boxes? Revisiting your recorded history is key to understanding your present behavior — why you feel and act the way you do.

If you want to review what is in your storage boxes, try music. Your subconscious imprints events with associated sounds just as it imprints with sight. Everyone who was alive when JFK was assassinated knows exactly where he or she was when hearing the news. Same with 9/11. Events that have occurred are often coupled with a song that may evoke strong feelings.

Because you are human and have lived a human life, be prepared for an emotional roller coaster when dusting off those storage boxes that have played such an important part of your life. Reexamining the past can help you not just understand your current behavior, but help you clarify your future. Events may be long forgotten, many times conveniently so, but in most cases feelings are just lying dormant. Feelings are not right or wrong, good or bad. Feelings are feelings and you were entitled to all of the feelings that you ever had.

It’s easy nowadays to pull up the music that was popular from any generation. Start when you were a child between the ages of five and ten. This was the music of your parents. Play it, listen to it, seek out particular songs you remember and get in touch with any feelings that come to you. Pay close attention to how the music makes you feel. Do these songs make you happy, sad, fearful, remorseful, excited? If you feel overwhelmed by any particular memory or emotion, you may want to consider doing a little “tapping.” Emotions are energy in motion. If the feelings that come up are uncomfortable for you in any way, tapping with your fingers on certain meridian end points on your face and torso will help move that emotional energy along. The best points would be tapping under your eye and tapping on your collarbone. Combined with slow deep breathing, tapping will help you feel your emotion but not be overwhelmed by it. Most of us have lived a lifetime pushing down our true feelings.

Next go to the music of your teens, high school and first dates — the time of life where songs imprint most distinctly due to young peoples’ preoccupation with the music of popular culture. Do you remember the freedom of your budding independence and the feelings it conveyed? Move through your 20’s, 30’s, and 40’s and so on in the same way. Your memories will jump alive to the sound of the music you were listening to, and you will be able to feel the feelings associated with those events. Again, try some tapping and slow deep breathing to help you move through any overwhelming emotions.

Maria Augusta von Trapp, the famous stepmother and matriarch of the Trapp Family Singers said, “Music acts like a magic key to which a tightly closed heart opens.” To get to the heart of your soul, go back and hold hands with the music of your past. It will make you laugh; it will make you cry; it will bring up old regrets, sorrows and shames, which is not a bad thing. It’s the soundtrack of your life.

Tina Marian is an RN who specializes in psych and addictions. She is a certified life coach with expertise in the art and application of The Emotional Freedom Techniques, also known as tapping. Visit